why do people always want something from you. y cant i just be enough y does there always have to be more or have to be something in the way. i get that people need things i do and thats fine but cant they ask someone else for a change or at least hav the desency to say thanks.

for once in my life i just want to no that i am good enough that what im doing is good enough. i cant make everyone happy its just not possible yet still i try. y does no one want me to be happy

my life so far:

Job- i hate but keep cos its wot mum wants i cant physically stand it but still its wot mum wants

Family- its all about the babies. all i ever hear is shut up i walked in the living room the other day and dropped my keys the imediate response shut up ul wake the babies i didnt do it on purpose. then they wonder y im never home or when i am i hide in my room because i just cant stand to sit there and count how long it will be till i get told to shut up cos i dont have a baby so i dont count

Love life- well its my love life so complicated and basically fucked is generally how that goes

Friends- havent seen then in like a week n a half which for us is vry uncommon

 

today ive have just had enough and i have no one left to cry to so im sittin at a monitor instead but i have to put it somewhere. tomorrow i will wake up n go back to work n il smile lik nothing is wrong as i slowly die inside and become everything that i hate.

im just so tired of fighting it