hmm today wot i needed a nice hot chocolate a dvd n foot massage, thou i hate feet so dont really no haow that would work lol

wot i got 2 screaming babies a hyperactive dog and 2 sick sisters = ruined evening. it wouldnt bother me if they were my kids or if they lived her but comin in from a long day to that its just anoying

But today reflecting as i frequently do... hmm... was watching a film the other day n it says everyone has the exact love life they want. do you think thats true? i been asked put 3 times in the past couple of weeks n i said no to all of them given 1 was a creep n he didnt so much as me out as ask me to settle down n have kids with him. but the other 2 r both really nice guys there was no reason for me to say no. hmm maybe it is true its lik i mess up every relationship or pick the guys i no i cant have, or if i can have them i can never have a real thing with them u no? so maybe its true... but i dont want to be alone i no that so y not say yes? i cant still be hooked? thats just not fair.

 

Im hooked on u i need i fix i cant take it

Just one more hit i promise i can deal with it

had a brilliant night sat thanx for helpin me celebrate guys lmao that pic of stacey drinkin her pitcher will hav ta upload them lol

Today i have been sittin in hospital with me sis bless her. she went in thursday they were checkin if the baby was breached turns out shes in early stages of pre-eclampcia (sp?) so they kept her in to enduce her and its taken them till today! that place really is a joke. but neva mind hopefully i will hav new niece or nephew by 2moz but sucks cos i gotta work so wont get to be the birthing partner :( neva mind i suppose

Neway i really gotta sleep got 1st clients in 2moz scary

 

Sitting here by the phone

With your pictures hanging on my wall x

 

 

we live in the hope that

some silences unbroken

As words that go unspoken

Find time to hear their truth

And find meaning in them too

A truth that sets us free

A truth that steers us true

But most of all

We live in the hope

That we are worth something

That everything we say and do

Will not amount to nothing

 

its not about putting the blame on anyone. we broke up big deal people break up everyday there is no blame or problem in that. i was trying to cheer up a friend the only way i knew how and since im not the friends shes missing i turn to those she talks about thinkin he would actually care. plus i though just maybe bein with all ur friends again would cheer u up a bit but clearly i was wrong as yet again u fail to see passed ur own place in this to realise it was about cheerin someone up not making u look bad.

gd luck with ur new gf i hope she stays long enough to find the old u cos this u is a real asshole

 

Keep telin everyone i lied to you

someone else might believe u oneday

LOVE IT!! Havin a brilliant day my driving lesson went great then i baby sat my niece for a while, did bit of ova time at work then martin just took me for a ride on his bike was excellent first time ive eva been on back of a bike. we was gonna go bowlin but hes dads comin home 2day so we had a quick drink instead think we might be goin bowlin sunday instead which is kl. thou my family r pain in the ass cos they assume that if i hang out with sum1 then im datin him n its hard convincing them otherwise lol but neva mind cos i had a wicked time.

all in all lifes great who says u need a man to hav a gd time, although that would make the day perfect ;) lol