bored.... went to see St Trinians was ok chipmunks is better.... on way home me sis asked me really randomly if i think we only hav one soul mate and if so how do ya find them? im not sure thou wot do u think? i dont think theres only one cos it would be so hard to find them surely dunno really wasnt expectin her to ask it was bit outta the blue really bit worried bout her think she scarred bout bein a single mum n struggling hmm

 

Hmm Del is happy so happy for him n think the trip will be gd for him. Saz is goin clubbin soo not fair :( but we goin as soon as i turn 18 so cant wait lol sad i no but luv dancin that plus she plans on gettin me wasted haha we shall see...

 

What kind of world do we live in

When love is divided by hate

 

 

 

hmm Nightwish on tour at astoria in london good band good venue tempting....

woohoo 2 exams ova just one to go oh yes!! lol given i kinda gave up on one of them cos i didnt no the answers so i went to the back n started writin the lyrics to woteva songs poped into me head lol seemed like a gd idea at the time  

1 more 2moz then off shop with me sisters n mum should be fun thou i hav no money so cant buy anything which sucks cos i really need to find sumin to wear to linkin park. got some runes today see if im better with them than tarrot cards lol i get annoyed cos they take to long to interpret think im gonna go back to meditating in the mornin n before i sleep cos it used to work really well so il giv it a go again dont really no y i stopped in the first place  muppet a.

anyway enough trivial shit bout me life cos im sure u dont wanna no so laters

 

burn rubber not your soul  x 

i was speakin to my friend today n i told him i wanted to go for a walk but was a bit late so couldnt cos mum n dad would start askin questions in i couldnt be bothered with it. he told me so close my eyes n feel the ground under your feet the wind blown n the night air rushin around u n just walk. so i did n he asked me wot i saw. i saw wide open fields n a beautiful starlite sky so that i could run n not have to stop until i wanted to then when i did stop i could lay n look at the stars and slowly disappear into the sky and become nothing the but the peaceful emptiness of nothin. So tell me, wot do u see?

 

i really shoul go i hav two exams tomorrow n havent got a clue wot they are  on or even wot time/ room i hav to been in so that could be fun :( but neva mind. at least it'll give me a few hours to catch up on sleep lol think i might go put on linkin park n try to sleep

 

Are my screams loud enough for you to hear?

Should i turn it up for you?

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhere! xx

random thought but if u were falling and dragging other down with you would it be better to jump n drown yourself to let them carry on or do u carry on tryin to find ur footing but risk hurtin other along the way?

 

havin a weird day to day not a bad one just weird lol it like everything is clear n fits into place. one single moment of clarity that generally leads ti a rash decision with little thought to the outcome so goin to avoid all decisions today n prob any topic that couldlead to decisions

but anyway the heatings fixed n the cots here (thou the matteres not there :-S ) so just waitin for my pc now

 

You should be the star in the show of your life

So y r u acting like the best freind? x

woohoo gettin my pc 2moz!!!! sweet thou need to get a screen that would help lol

had a long chat with del was gd (thou still not likin msn lol)

Bad points of da day: work (neva a gd thing), couldnt sleep n our pissin boiler just broke so cant shower till it fixed!!!!!! stupid piece of shit that boiler

that plus del is ill n some friends r unhappy  but life will get better, time to find the silver linings

seen an mate i hadnt seen in a while today that was gd will hav to meet up with her properly soon hav missed her lol

 

 

 

You always find a way

To keep me right here waiting xx